Dark Entries

The title is a Bauhaus song. Honestly, though, it has nothing to do with it, but I’m going to put it here for you to listen. Enjoy!

“Dark Entries” by Bauhaus

There are so many times when your mind goes blank. Total emptiness breaks through your brain, and there’s nothing you can do about it. Or maybe you can, but it’s hard to think clearly. The sounds around you become a distant echo, gradually disappearing.

There are so many distractions; all of them become one, forming a massive wall made of everything and nothing, all at once. Any inspiration to do anything is kept on the other side of that wall; it’s so hard to break that you end up going back at the beginning to the point of giving up.

It is part of any creative process to lose sight. It is part of any creative process to make one, three, thousands of mistakes as long as these don’t keep us on the floor. We learned that from movies or some others from good parents. Perhaps it’s easier said than done for a good percentage of people; of course, I made this up, I didn’t look for any statistic to give.

Motivation is just a little bit of what someone needs to write constantly. The balance between life and the inner self is also another bit of what it takes to keep writing in form.

I am not sure if other factors determine what we need to reach a specific goal. Whatever that goal you set, of course, this last point is different for me, and it is different for you, just like it is different for each individual among millions.

Dark is always there to consume us. We usually call them the inner demons, but we don’t know if those demons are just the negativity within ourselves. I am not a person who believes in a certain mindset; you know, that bullcrap we hear from self-improvement books. Our life stays the same while the author’s wallet gets fat.

What is the actual advice, then? I’ve looked at some of my past posts on this blog, and I asked similar questions. There are points in life when we need to take a break, ask ourselves questions, see if we’re heading in the right direction we wanted.

How long do we have to keep asking ourselves questions, though? I’m curious for real. May we ask a successful friend or family member, and we’ll find out that most of them have questions too. Even when we look at those families that seem perfect, I bet they wonder about things. Who knows.

It’s good to have a distraction once in a while. Music, movies, friends, games, or anything that releases your stress can be good for a recovery process. A good song, your favorite, is a tool that could give you a push. Sometimes we need a little push or a heavy push; it all depends on the kind of darkness you’re into. See if there’s something that would help alleviate stress, or see if you actually need a little extra from somebody else. The only thing that matters here is that you don’t remain in the dark. Or at least look for something within and bring it to your reality.

Now I feel somewhat guilty. I feel like I’m the one talking like those self-improvement phonies. But I have to be honest, though, and say that this post was for me. I wrote it for myself, and I don’t even know why I’m sharing it. I guess that is the purpose of a blog. There are different sections/pages on this web, and everything’s coming from my brain. I hope someone enjoys it, at least.

Let’s Have a Look

We walked for two hours after dinner. Some say it’s good to take a walk after eating, but my stomach hurt. Helen, my friend, seemed to be happy, though. She was weird in high school, always wanted to walk at night carefree. We’re adults, and she had the same fascination for the after-hours. 

“Hey,” she interrupted my thoughts, “Want to check it out?”

I followed her gaze; there was a huge cemetery in the middle of nowhere. I didn’t realize we were this far from civilization. I shook my head. 

“C’mon, chicken. It’ll be fun.” 

She looked at me, smiling; I recognized those eyes, just like when we were teenagers. I was speechless. We’re adults now, girl, but the words never got out of my head. 

She grabbed my arm to drag me with her. The gates were closed, but the walls weren’t tall enough. She was crazy. I couldn’t believe we went from a normal conversation at Cici’s to invade a goddamned graveyard. 

Helen was braver than me, that’s for sure.

“Help me up.” I frowned when she said that. I thought she only wanted to have a look from outside. 

“No,” I responded, “I don’t think I need to explain why this is so wrong.”

“Don’t worry, chicken,” she hit my shoulder with a playful fist, “you don’t need to come with me. Help me up.” 

I don’t know why I ended up helping her. “I’m going to wait a few minutes and then leave, okay?. Do whatever you’re supposed to be doing inside quickly.”

She left without a single word. I lost sight of her. I repeated out loud that I was about to go, but I didn’t get a response—complete silence. 

In the end, I went inside to look for her. She made me jump with a boo, and laughed at me. I recovered from the scare and called her idiot, and then I smiled. 

“Want to have a good look at the place?” She asked. 

I nodded. I guess this could be fun. 

Website LIVE!

WEBSITE LIVE!Technically, this post is a lie. This blog, website, or whatever you want to call it has been active for 4-5 years already. Though at first it was for practice, now I want to write more often, I am enjoying this a lot. Months ago, I bought a leather Ravenclaw journal. I love the Harry Potter series, and I believe Ravenclaw is the best house in Hogwarts… but I don’t want to start talking about Harry Potter, because if I do, this post announcing this website would get unnecessarily long.

So yes, this is nothing really important. My only purpose is to keep this place active, and hoping you all enjoy reading my content as much as I am enjoying writing it!

What am I working on?

I am currently writing a novel, project called For Her Moon. I believe it might change for the final work, but for now the hashtag #ForHerMoon is related to the novel.

What do I plan to do with this website/blog?

The action of writing has been my best stress-relief. And the mentioned journal was my favorite device to get better results. Unfortunately, no one has invented a notebook with infinite pages, so this blog is going to replace my stress-relief device. That’s one of its functions.

The main purpose, is to start introducing my work to all people that comes to my little world. The Stories section of my website will include, as it says, stories; short stories, to be more specific. These short stories and preludes to my novels are going to be 100% free, and I’d love to read your thoughts about my stories.

The journal section will include random posts about anything. I plan to talk about something I do, like some random thoughts about restaurants, places, general opinions about hobbies, and almost randomized brainstorming. Nothing from my personal life, though.

The review section will include my opinion about a specific movie, videogame, or book. I am not a professional reviewer, so take anything I say as it is: a personal opinion.

Final note

This is an old-new website. Don’t think this place is going to be the same in the future. I am looking to improve everything, from its design to its content. Every single word written here is by my hand and keyboard, but I am a complete ignorant when it comes to layouts and visuals, I might ask someone to help me improve the website. BABY STEPS, first the content, and then everything else.

Welcome to my little world, Stranger. I hope you enjoy your stay!